Faithful

To say that I have been busy is an understatement. I decided to take a break from blogging due to so many things going on in my life. God has been doing some major transformations in my life. And though I am truly thankful for them - I am also truly exhausted from them. I have been flooded with emotions - good and bad. Even during the bad times, God has remained faithful and has held me up. Therefore, I have remained faithful - even when I thought I was going to fall over at any minute.

The last 2 years have been the most difficult of my entire life. I have endured many many hardships, heartbreaks, and heartaches! But through it all God has shown me the way - His way. He has brought me here today to testify and to give Him the glory that is due Him. Thank you Heavenly Father! By your grace I am saved - and healing.

Part of my journey has included self-exploration. And in doing so I have learned that I am weak, broken, and scared. I am fighting with everything I have but at times I feel so defeated. Unable to carrry on. And as I lay weeping on my knees, God lifted me in ways only He can! I have had more "God" moments in the last few months than I ever knew could exist for one person. And everytime one of those moments occurs I am filled with the most wonderful sense of peace and comfort. God is here - always!

"When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze. For I am the LORD, your God,the Holy One of Israel, your Savior; (Isaiah 43:2,3b)

I recenly read the above scripture and it truly spoke to me. I have been through the waters, the rivers, and the fire. And I have prevailed - with God's guidance and help. I am learning to trust completely and to let go. These are not easy tasks for me, but necessary if I am going to find my way in this world and carry out God's plan for me.

God is real, he is true, and he is faithful. This I know for certain. And even though I am afraid and uncertain in my decisions, I am certain that my decisions are guided by God and I must trust him completely with no second-guessing. He is my Savior - and by his grace I am saved!